For a long time I found myself afraid to speak even though I had a lot to say. People have a hard time believing me when I say that because I have stood before hundreds of people to sing. The truth is, I have always been concerned about what people would think about what I was saying when there was no melody, no music, no background singers, just me, center stage, nothing and no one to cover up or hide my vulnerability. Perhaps I would sound too country. I have heard that before. Perhaps they would think what I said was not intelligent enough. I have had people correct me. Eye roll.
Well, I have come to this conclusion, “I am who I am”. I sound country because I am straight out of the country. I am not deep, I am not complicated or controversial. I do not speak as though I am at a press conference and someone has written me a speech. I am far from an English Scholar (check my punctuation and improper grammar). However, I know who I am and I like me, I love me. I am simple and I want to say what I want to say. I want to find my voice. I want to simply speak.
I have found that facing the very thing that made me feel vulnerable has been a blessing for me. I am going to use this blog to speak my heart. I am not sure what that will be from one day to the next. I do not want to be heard by anybody, but at the same time I want to be heard by everybody. I am not targeting any particular group of people. I mostly want to speak to me. My inner me is my worst critic. For example, I have read and edited what I have written above about fifty times. When I post this blog, I will have decided I am being ridiculous and just need to get it done because no matter how many times I go through it, there will be something missing or something else that I can add to make it better.
To my inner me and every super judgemental individual out there, I would like to release this statement, “My simplicity speaks volumes”. So, here’s to me finding my voice. I encourage everyone that can relate to let simplicity speak by simply speaking.